I’m tired of girls trying to invalidate their own feelings during times of pain, especially to their friends. Your break up meant something. That friendship you lost was a hard blow. I understand why you feel tired this semester. Sometimes this “modern woman” stereotype is patriarchy’s last attempt; patriarchy disguised as feminism. You don’t have to be “wise beyond your years”; your pain and crying does not mean you are not intelligent. If you feel your friends demand justification for your pain and ordeals, they’re not friends. You’re strong but human. Remind yourself emotional space is part of liberation.
Despite my poor sleep schedule I woke up feeling a little more peaceful with myself…I feel better. I’m still swimming in my ocean of uncertainty and self-loathing and anxiety but I have my head above water and I’m breathing…
I’m determined to finish all of my tasks and do it with minimal stress as possible. I need to tell myself It’s okay…It’s okay if I don’t finish. It’s okay if it’s not 100% there’s still tomorrow…and sometimes tomorrow is enough.
Another positive note I’m currently sitting here watching the sun rise, eating a donut and drinking chocolate milk. It’s the littlest things that make me happy.I’m okay…I’m going to be okay. Life is good.
Fuck anyone who tries to make you feel ashamed of who you are. They don’t know jack shit about what you’ve survived, and you don’t owe them any explanation or apology. If you aren’t hurting anyone, you have nothing to be ashamed of. Be proud. You deserve it.
